Well, it's one of those days today when you feel nothing. When you don't want to feel anything. Being so driven by emotions, I have always spoken or written my heart out. But this is some new territory. Something different. Something much bigger than my feelings. It has been 2 years that I am staying alone and all it has done to me is made me grow up a lot. Adulting is difficult to handle when you look at it as work. But if you truly love the way you are turning out and don't keep any regrets, it is a wonderful experience and to know that you can do everything by yourself. Basically you can be your own hero!
You can take all the decisions on your own, you can make mistakes and learn from them without anyone instructing you. You can push yourself to do things which otherwise you wouldn't because you have someone to fall back on. It's scary how staying alone grows on you. You don't need anyone to do anything for you. You don't have anyone to look at you when you are miserable. You don't have anyone to raise eyebrows when you do something weird.
But to come to think of it, is it really a boon or a curse? Is it so that you won't ever feel the need to share your life with someone? Is it so that you start liking being alone that everything else just seems puny? Wondering if this could mean that I would want someone more than anything now or I wouldn't!
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