SCARILY AMAZING!

          I have no clue as to what I am feeling these days. May be it's the feeling of growing up or just plain moving ahead in life. What comes as a surprise to me is the amount of excitement I have when I work. They used to say that you should have some passion in life. Can't that passion be your work or even the workplace? I used to talk about the motivations we have at our offices. It still stands true for me today. I do have a lot of motivations to come to this place called office and go through the day. It's funny to know how I got so used to this place. It seems like I have been working here for all my life. They say I have gelled with the people here very smoothly. Even I think so but knowing myself, I will soon start to feel that people are just putting up the act of being nice.         


           What if people don't like me? What is they are just nice to my face? Why am I bothered by that? Why is it affecting me so much? I don't want to be the person about whom people like to gossip more than talking to them. You know the amount of laughs I have had in this place is not even funny. But still it feels like this might not be the ultimate good thing that has happened to me. There is nothing on my mind as to what next but I am surely not at a stand still corner. This feels more like a stepping stone, which every job is but I am going through such a dilemma where I love this place & people but I am still hoping for something better. Its strange to be in this state of mind. I feel scared, excited, frustrated, blurry, sad, happy all at the same time.