People Go.... Memories Don't!

There is always that one time when you fall in love with a person in just mere minutes of talking to them and you love yourself because of that feeling. You feel like looking at yourself the way they look at you. You want to see your own world with their eyes. But sometimes these people disappear in the moment and to never return. We feel heartbroken and shattered but you are still somewhere happy that it happened to you, that they happened to you! You have a lot of people who just come and go in your life which don't mean anything to you. Sometimes the people who are there in your life for years don't mean anything to you. But there is that one person who comes and never leaves. They don't leave from your heart, never from your soul. No matter what happens, nobody can make you forget them. Not the stars, the moon and the sun. It just hurts when something in far away universe decide your destiny. And something that was in your heart goes into a shell never to be broken. You feel a need to cry but you can't. You feel a need to scream at someone up there but you can't and that's destiny. You can write your destiny but you can't write your own feelings. That's the epitome of irony. We decide to smile for others but you can't smile even for yourself. Irony playing it hard with your feelings!

The Complicated Simple!

You feel a need to laugh, when you can't. You feel a need to express when you have to hide. You do something that makes you sad just because there is something pushing you to do it. My heart cries for something that was never mine. I feel homesick for a place I have never ever been to. I miss the laughaholic me. I miss being crazily in love with myself and with someone who would do weird things I did once.

I don’t have bones, I have curves. I don't have bruises, I have scars which I have earned and well deserved. I have a past, which has taught me a lot of things and has made me as strong. Some people love me for something and some hate for the same things. I have done well and I have made mistakes. I love curling in bed on a lazy day and not have a bath and only eat. I love working hard for getting the things I want in life. I am random and crazy and moody. 

But I am me. I don’t regret anything in my life. I don’t pretend to be someone I am not. I make no apologies for who I am. If I love you, I’ll do it with all my heart and soul into it. I won’t change the good me for anyone. I would do anything in the world for those people and will make them stay the last mile as well. 

What if you feel bad for a mistake you never made? What if someone judges you for something that you can't even think about doing? What if things get dark when you were just looking at the bright? You need answers. You need justifications. You need clarifications. But what if you are the only one left to do that?